Why am i anti social with girls??

it's not fair... i'm not saying the girl i like but imean like other girls. i have no female friends much.. all is guys.. i wanta meet sum girls 2.... even i don't have much male friends all i have is 3 best friends... everybody else just thinks were losers....well not really but in my high school (i'm azn btw) theres the "popular azn group" everyone's like in... well not really my friends but if they join they don't care.... IF i join i'm considered a ***** loser...... i use 2 be a loser... cause i talk about bs,, and do bs.. but i'm changing myself at will.... i changed alot in these couple years... so now i have 15+ male friends but i don't hang with them often... but for girls like almost none... i want to talk to them but i'm scared. i've been insulted b4 in jr.hi..so i feel dum, a loser, poor, etc. i havta admit i have like no good points at all except for some basic skill for fixing comps. i don't dare to look at a girl cause i feel like i'm so ugly. i don't kno wat 2 say 2 them